angry ! whats wrong with mens ?

[princessemi]

This is just so weird , I am still in shock
Had a big fight with my on/off partner last night , we have 2 small kids together , he doesnt live with us but see his kids nearly every day (after work)
I though he just went to his place and went to sleep as it was already 10pm so wasnt worried or anything
I knew we would make up the next day
I tried to call him several time the next day but he wasnt answering his phone which is really unusual I knew something must have been wrong
I think I called his mobile number approx 30 times lol until his friend answered (bit drunk) and told me he had no idea where my ex was , he has left his car,keys,wallet and phone at his place but then just simply disseapred
They have been drinking all night and then my ex apparently said he wants to go home , it was about 2-3am and he was really drunk , he wanted to drive his car (idiot!) but he broke the key(luckily) ! So he went walking with no money,etc ...
His friend live in a diffrent city approx 30miles away from where my ex lives
I knew he wouldnt get too far as he didnt really know the area ! He was at his friends house first time !
We feared the worst , his friend went to the police station , they have checked hospitals and custody but couldnt find him It was already 2pm the next day so we knew even if he fallen asleep somewhere in the park he should have wake up by now and ask someone to borrow his phone and call his own number to let evereyone know he was ok , He didnt get in touch so we knew something was really wrong , His friend checked parks,roads etc and he couldnt find him nowhere
He went to the local hospitals but no luck
In that moment I was 99.9% sure he is dead , It just didnt make any sense he would have dissapeard just like that and even his friends didnt know where he was
I immediately started thinking about my kids future without their father , It broke my heart , I knew I had to just keep going regardless but I felt suicidal , I dont know if I could ever cope without him , even though we are not living together and we are not in a relathionship I felt lost without him .......
I even prayed for him to come back and just got back together and sort out our lifes and start from the beggining ........ but then I got a phone call "They have found him! he went to one of his friends house , lol I couldnt be happier
I honestly believed he was dead ! awful feeling , now the question is should I forgive him ? He goes out , get drunk , doesnt know what his doing , he wanted to drive his car when totally pissed ! This makes me mad
I dont where he was (was he with someone else ?) what he was doing ? No idea ? I asked his friend if he was with another women ? His friend said "dont know" instead of "no" which makes me wonder , was he with somebody else ? he simply didnt care about my feeling and the fact that I nearly had a heart attack !
It is Sunday and he supposed to come and take the kids out spend time with them but he isnt here , he is with his mates , drunk , no idea what he was doing last night , he broke the car key and he supposed to go to work tomorrow , he can only get there by car its 40miles trip (80miles both ways) he isnt really responsible is he ? he is yet to call me but I dont know what to tell him ?
I am happy he is alive and safe but pissed off at the same time he have done something like that ! and he is 31 years old with 2 small kids at home !
I am just tired of this , its sunday sunny outside and instead of taking kids to the park he is wasted somewhere in diffrent city ! Sorry about this rant but I am so angry with him , feel better now lol

[princessemi]

Originally Posted by princessemi

This is just so weird , I am still in shock
Had a big fight with my on/off partner last night , we have 2 small kids together , he doesnt live with us but see his kids nearly every day (after work)
I though he just went to his place and went to sleep as it was already 10pm so wasnt worried or anything
I knew we would make up the next day
I tried to call him several time the next day but he wasnt answering his phone which is really unusual I knew something must have been wrong
I think I called his mobile number approx 30 times lol until his friend answered (bit drunk) and told me he had no idea where my ex was , he has left his car,keys,wallet and phone at his place but then just simply disseapred
They have been drinking all night and then my ex apparently said he wants to go home , it was about 2-3am and he was really drunk , he wanted to drive his car (idiot!) but he broke the key(luckily) ! So he went walking with no money,etc ...
His friend live in a diffrent city approx 30miles away from where my ex lives
I knew he wouldnt get too far as he didnt really know the area ! He was at his friends house first time !
We feared the worst , his friend went to the police station , they have checked hospitals and custody but couldnt find him It was already 2pm the next day so we knew even if he fallen asleep somewhere in the park he should have wake up by now and ask someone to borrow his phone and call his own number to let evereyone know he was ok , He didnt get in touch so we knew something was really wrong , His friend checked parks,roads etc and he couldnt find him nowhere
He went to the local hospitals but no luck
In that moment I was 99.9% sure he is dead , It just didnt make any sense he would have dissapeard just like that and even his friends didnt know where he was
I immediately started thinking about my kids future without their father , It broke my heart , I knew I had to just keep going regardless but I felt suicidal , I dont know if I could ever cope without him , even though we are not living together and we are not in a relathionship I felt lost without him .......
I even prayed for him to come back and just got back together and sort out our lifes and start from the beggining ........ but then I got a phone call "They have found him! he went to one of his friends house , lol I couldnt be happier
I honestly believed he was dead ! awful feeling , now the question is should I forgive him ? He goes out , get drunk , doesnt know what his doing , he wanted to drive his car when totally pissed ! This makes me mad
I dont where he was (was he with someone else ?) what he was doing ? No idea ? I asked his friend if he was with another women ? His friend said "dont know" instead of "no" which makes me wonder , was he with somebody else ? he simply didnt care about my feeling and the fact that I nearly had a heart attack !
It is Sunday and he supposed to come and take the kids out spend time with them but he isnt here , he is with his mates , drunk , no idea what he was doing last night , he broke the car key and he supposed to go to work tomorrow , he can only get there by car its 40miles trip (80miles both ways) he isnt really responsible is he ? he is yet to call me but I dont know what to tell him ?
I am happy he is alive and safe but pissed off at the same time he have done something like that ! and he is 31 years old with 2 small kids at home !
I am just tired of this , its sunday sunny outside and instead of taking kids to the park he is wasted somewhere in diffrent city ! Sorry about this rant but I am so angry with him , feel better now lol

Never mind maybe I am paranoid

[agamemnon]

dont think you are being paranoid love. he may not have been with another woman, but the fact is simple he would much rather go get drunk with his mates than spend some precious time with his kids!

he obviously doesnt put their needs before his own. They deserve better than being picked up and dropped whenever he feels like it. Tell him step step up and do his part as a father or forget about it. and i think you can do sooo much better too. focus on your babies and im sure you will find someone decent